[Fight or Flight]
When thoughts go neglected it’s hectic and I often wonder if my oversight will ever even come to light, which leaves me with a feeling I’m not dealing with my healing right..
So to try setting my life right, I brought a pencil to my mind’s gunfight..
As I begin to write, my line of sight is formed only by my pencil’s graphite..
Fight or flight is all I have — it’s clear as day and night, it’s even written right here in black and white, but out of spite, I continue to write and write and write..
Writing begins uniting thoughts once glossed with abrasive gunshots from my well-being that’s fleeing from being double crossed — my stomachs in knots and I’m at a loss..
I try harder and harder to get my thoughts out, to make sense of my word drought that’s filled with gray clout..
Maybe I’ve finally bottomed out and need to seek a new plan down a new route..
But I’ve got nowhere to go and nothing to show because I’m burnt out beyond a doubt..
Is it too much to say that I’m tired of being stuck in a rut from all the things that have roughed me up and caused me to feel so down on my luck?
I know all I need to do is to just readjust, but sometimes with sadness I panic, feel manic, and like darkness in blackness I vanish in madness..
As I stay in dismay, I downplay how much I don’t feel okay, how much I’m in disarray and likely wish I could just fly away..
But I’ll still convey that today like most days, I hope you’ll sync with me and together we’ll forever tether in unity..
In fact, this is the only thing that helps keep me going — knowing that in the end my friends will continually keep showing to ensure I keep glowing and flowing by growing in my community..
It doesn’t matter anymore how many times I slip and fall and drop the ball — in the long haul, one day we’ll all see that “you” and “I” and “they” and “them” and “those” and “we” is all formed entirely within and I’m on a mission to be set free and perhaps even take the rest of the world with me..
I don’t care if you disagree with my inconsistencies or can’t move past juvenile delinquencies — by principle it’s criminal to think individuals aren’t meant to be integral..
Together we become indivisible — this is pivotal..
It’s nearly mythical that the loving people and close friends that surround me have strengths high above my biggest weaknesses, and together, as a unit, it’s unconditional we’re admissible to be invincible..
drops 🎤✌🏽
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